end of year in fic 2022
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liptintedtotal finished fic count: 12
word count: 84k words -__-
fics orphaned this year: none.
fandoms:
tv/drama: beyond evil (6), stranger things (1), i told sunset about you (1)
rpf: wayv (1), beyond evil rpf (3)
looking back, did you expect to write more fic than you thought you would this year, less, or about what you’d expected?
i expected to write less than what i did, which honestly spurs from a part of me that feels disillusioned about writing as a joyous process. i had fun but during the second half of the year, it became more about completing what i had started despite not getting much payoff or heightened joy out of it as the year progressed. i do wonder if it would have been better for me to abandon certain things i'd written instead of pushing through. i haven't yet pinpointed why i feel like this when i felt proud of myself almost a month ago for finishing a chaptered work. part of it is that i didn't have a lot of ideas that i personally think are worth writing about, which i think dampened my capacity to enjoy the beyond evil fandom as well after a few months because it wasn't offering me anything new, or refreshing takes that i thought could be worth churning into fic.
i expected to write less than what i did, which honestly spurs from a part of me that feels disillusioned about writing as a joyous process. i had fun but during the second half of the year, it became more about completing what i had started despite not getting much payoff or heightened joy out of it as the year progressed. i do wonder if it would have been better for me to abandon certain things i'd written instead of pushing through. i haven't yet pinpointed why i feel like this when i felt proud of myself almost a month ago for finishing a chaptered work. part of it is that i didn't have a lot of ideas that i personally think are worth writing about, which i think dampened my capacity to enjoy the beyond evil fandom as well after a few months because it wasn't offering me anything new, or refreshing takes that i thought could be worth churning into fic.
what pairing/genre/fandom did you write that you would never have predicted in January?
jwds from beyond evil. also the rpf lol. and stranger things.
disclaimer that i have not read a lot this year!
jwds from beyond evil. also the rpf lol. and stranger things.
your own favorite story of the year:
that first friend you had, that worst thing you said - fandom: i told sunset about you, pairing: teh/oh-aew
i actually forgot i wrote this until i got a comment on it towards the end of the year, almost like ten to eleven months after i posted this in january lol. i'd received a compliment on it elsewhere from a friend a long while back too -- i was just feeling a lot of the usual hate-love for a work in the first week or so after posting that i just wiped it out of my mind completely until friend told me they liked it LOL. getting that one comment on ao3 reminded me that ok wow i did write this fic and it made me read back what i'd written just to find that oh lol this wasn't as bad as i thought it had been. i think i got down the vibe i wanted to go for. young love :')
i think this was the most satisfying story i'd ever written in terms of like the final heightened tension of the story to its ending. i'm pretty proud of the tense conversation in that final scene of the fic. poorly adapted and summarised > i'm not your bitch, and that's not what this is but i could be. you're good to me, you've always been kind. i will compliment myself and say that i gave han juwon some pretty banger lines here. this is also what i wanted to write out of an established relationship fic. it's very satisfying to get into a pairing like them because they check off every box of the kind of established relationship scenario i think is worth thinking about and can pick at. edit: i think them living together post-canon in manyang is something that i wouldn't ultimately agree with, and i realised this upon my 2nd re-watch of the drama. BUT the whole conflict of the fic centred around living in manyang and its stifling small-town tendencies of a never-ending rumour mill, and i'm proud of how i handled that conflict so it's fine!
that first friend you had, that worst thing you said - fandom: i told sunset about you, pairing: teh/oh-aew
i actually forgot i wrote this until i got a comment on it towards the end of the year, almost like ten to eleven months after i posted this in january lol. i'd received a compliment on it elsewhere from a friend a long while back too -- i was just feeling a lot of the usual hate-love for a work in the first week or so after posting that i just wiped it out of my mind completely until friend told me they liked it LOL. getting that one comment on ao3 reminded me that ok wow i did write this fic and it made me read back what i'd written just to find that oh lol this wasn't as bad as i thought it had been. i think i got down the vibe i wanted to go for. young love :')
i think this was the most satisfying story i'd ever written in terms of like the final heightened tension of the story to its ending. i'm pretty proud of the tense conversation in that final scene of the fic. poorly adapted and summarised > i'm not your bitch, and that's not what this is but i could be. you're good to me, you've always been kind. i will compliment myself and say that i gave han juwon some pretty banger lines here. this is also what i wanted to write out of an established relationship fic. it's very satisfying to get into a pairing like them because they check off every box of the kind of established relationship scenario i think is worth thinking about and can pick at. edit: i think them living together post-canon in manyang is something that i wouldn't ultimately agree with, and i realised this upon my 2nd re-watch of the drama. BUT the whole conflict of the fic centred around living in manyang and its stifling small-town tendencies of a never-ending rumour mill, and i'm proud of how i handled that conflict so it's fine!
most fun story to write:
what i haven't taught myself - fandom: beyond evil, pairing: dongsik/juwon
ok this was a pain to write but the scenes and lines i had fun writing were the most freeing and indulgent this year, especially after writing deaging fic. we need to make men deal with erectile dysfunction in the bedroom more often.
what i haven't taught myself - fandom: beyond evil, pairing: dongsik/juwon
ok this was a pain to write but the scenes and lines i had fun writing were the most freeing and indulgent this year, especially after writing deaging fic. we need to make men deal with erectile dysfunction in the bedroom more often.
hardest story to write:
you listen and you know - fandom: wayv, pairing: multiple
this was the potential disbandment fic i pushed myself to finish as a final love letter to my favourite flop boyband ever.
hold your lost causes - fandom: beyond evil, pairing: dongsik/juwon
this was the only chaptered work i did, and i really struggled lol. i said everything i needed to about writing this in some extended fic notes. i'm still trying to decide now if this was all worth it LOL. i mean it is, but is it???? i would be happy taking a longggg break from writing in 2023 tbh but the moment i try to express this sentiment anywhere, something always gets me to write :')
you listen and you know - fandom: wayv, pairing: multiple
this was the potential disbandment fic i pushed myself to finish as a final love letter to my favourite flop boyband ever.
hold your lost causes - fandom: beyond evil, pairing: dongsik/juwon
this was the only chaptered work i did, and i really struggled lol. i said everything i needed to about writing this in some extended fic notes. i'm still trying to decide now if this was all worth it LOL. i mean it is, but is it???? i would be happy taking a longggg break from writing in 2023 tbh but the moment i try to express this sentiment anywhere, something always gets me to write :')
most memorable comment:
this comment on Careful, the last fic on the hakyun/jingoo series warms me a lot, and i keep going back to re-read it. writing BE rpf was a wild and terrible time. the cons of getting into actor rpf that was non-existent in its english-speaking spheres of the fandom, is that there is nothing to eat so you try to cook up a meal yourself. the other perk is that...no one is reading it, and the rpf wasn't ever going to blow up, so thank goodness. shin hakyun already does such a good job of gatekeeping himself and like, i'm all for never knowing too much in this particular case. anyway their comment on this fic really touched me on that last part of the series, because it made me believe that what i had written could be. well. read into, which was super meaningful to me because i really don't think my writing style and particular love for nuance is something that's meant for everyone or "palatable" (ugh i hate to say it like that but i can't think of another word). it was very nice and kind of them to say that they gave the rpf series a shot because they enjoyed my BE fic itself, which really made me happy. their interpretation in the comment really struck with the kind of story I sought to write in the first place.
this comment on Careful, the last fic on the hakyun/jingoo series warms me a lot, and i keep going back to re-read it. writing BE rpf was a wild and terrible time. the cons of getting into actor rpf that was non-existent in its english-speaking spheres of the fandom, is that there is nothing to eat so you try to cook up a meal yourself. the other perk is that...no one is reading it, and the rpf wasn't ever going to blow up, so thank goodness. shin hakyun already does such a good job of gatekeeping himself and like, i'm all for never knowing too much in this particular case. anyway their comment on this fic really touched me on that last part of the series, because it made me believe that what i had written could be. well. read into, which was super meaningful to me because i really don't think my writing style and particular love for nuance is something that's meant for everyone or "palatable" (ugh i hate to say it like that but i can't think of another word). it was very nice and kind of them to say that they gave the rpf series a shot because they enjoyed my BE fic itself, which really made me happy. their interpretation in the comment really struck with the kind of story I sought to write in the first place.
favorite fic you read this year:
nothing but the sky - tanktrilby, fandom: beyond evil
intervals where - illychill, fandom: nct
nothing but the sky - tanktrilby, fandom: beyond evil
intervals where - illychill, fandom: nct
disclaimer that i have not read a lot this year!